One of my favorite songs is "Shadowfeet" by Brooke Fraser (if you've visited our family blog, it was on the playlist until recently). The line that is really speaking to me today is:
"EVERY FEAR AND ACCUSATION UNDER MY FEET
When time and space are through, I'll be found in You."
The past week or two I have been dealing with accusations.
Unsubstantiated ones.
And anyone who knows me knows that I am wired to tread lightly and that I do not try to tick people off. In fact, I err on the side of really, really, really trying NOT to tick people off. To a fault. So when it has come my way more than once in the last two weeks that misunderstandings have led to me getting lashed out at by those who do not know me, it has really burned. And while I desire to have a teachable heart and have been trying to evaluate these situations and consider if I need to own any of it, ultimately I've been brought back to who the accuser is. And boy, does he make me mad.
I think back to when I was pulled over by a police officer who seemed pretty nervous approaching my vehicle. Once he was at my door, he proceeded to accuse me of driving a stolen car.
Oh, yeah. That's JUST like me to do something like that.
He wasn't even the least bit nice about it. And by the end of his tirade I was ready to ask for the guy's badge number (but didn't, in keeping with the whole "don't-like-to-tick-people-off" thing).
Somehow I was able to convince the guy I wasn't some felon on the run (though I really give off that vibe, I know) and was on my way, but there was something about being falsely accused that did not sit well with me.
Nor does it now. Prayerfully the Lord has really brought me to the peace that I am not to own these unmerited accusations--by strangers--those who do not know my heart.
But I praise the One who sees my heart--the One in whom I am found.
He is my DEFENDER. He is my ADVOCATE. He speaks on my BEHALF. He's my MEDIATOR. And because of His victory over sin and death, and because I am, by His grace, found in Him, these fears and accusations are UNDER MY FEET in the strong and mighty name of JESUS.
And so I say to the accuser, you may have struck the heel of my Jesus. But He has crushed your head (Genesis 3:15). You are under His feet.
And your accusations are under mine.
hmmm, good words.
ReplyDeletereally, you were accused of driving a stolen car? cool! i mean it is a great story to have to tell :-)
i am dealing with accusations. and i don't handle them like you do. i HATE injustice. i HATE being accused of something i didn't say or do. and i lashed out at my accuser. however i know the one who accuses me is only learning to control her "tainted inner monologue," and that i should extend mercy to her. she is being lied to by the "father of all lies," and i am in the line of fire. BUT, BUT, BUT... well did i mention i HATE being wrongly accused.
i too have a lot to learn.